No really, you are...

I’ve been noticing him for a while. He hits my blog 4-10 times a night. Usually between 2am and 6am. He tries to mask his IP but he doesn’t do a very good job of it. I know the city he comes from and a lot of other identifying info from his/about his computer. Oh and i know his his name servers, who owns those servers and how to get in contact with that person. I’m thinking its likely who he works for.

I think hes trying to hack me, though to what end i don’t know. Hes certainly not reading my blog over and over and over and he hits it every night regardless if i have any new material or not. hes pretty OCD about the whole thing… oh or on crack. I can see what pages he jumps around to as he goes on his late night tweek fest of blog staking me.. lets just say he doesn’t jump around much,  he doesn’t stay long, then he comes back over the next few hours and it starts the process  all over again.

Wash, rinse, repeat!

Wash that man right outta my hair

I’ve taken to blocking his IPs… its like playing whack-a-mole. Since this guy fancies himself some kinda computer wise guy he uses a lot of proxies in his fumbling attempts at what ever it is he’s trying to do as his sits around in the late night, wee morning hours hours smoking bowl after bowl of crack and sweating profusely in his moms basement.

Yeah i dont like you much either

Being vocal i have attracted my fair share of detractors. Usually men who screw the hookers who don’t like what i have to say about said men. Recently i have pissed off some chicks too. Other sex workers, who didn’t like what i had to say about them and my dealings with them.  Ive been stalked in real life by as it turned out by an acquaintance who at a social function recently approached me and tried to “make amends” after terrorizing me for a year. AS IF fuck nut!  I’ve been stalked as “Jenny”  (which continues to this day) So it’s bound to happen that at some point someone would blog stalk little ol’ me. I’m set up for that inevitable situation. I’ve been set up for it since day one.  My blog’s as secure as i can make it and really this blocking of the crazy late night tweekin blog stalker IP’s was just to see what came of it. I could easily just let him hit it all night every night until he got bored and moved on to stalking girls in real life, if  the freak hasn’t already gone that route. Which is of course very likely cuz obviously hes whacked and has too much time on his hands.

I will rat your tweeker ass out

I suppose i could start tweeting at the servers owner. I have found him on the Twitter. I wonder what he would think if he got mixed up in some hooker controversy where his business was being used to stalk some outspoken sex workers blog.  Being as he seems a rather conservative dude who works in the computer field, I’m thinkin’ maybe he would be none to happy with that outcome.

I guess tweeked out blog stalker didn’t take that into account…

serendipity or stalking

I’ve been stalked. I’ve been stalked in my real life a few years back, it was the first time something like that happened to me. I didn’t know who my stalker was but wow he sure knew a lot about me. My name, where I lived, my phone number, details about my life. It was pretty awful. I had to inform my neighbors, my landlord, my parents and the police. Yes i contacted the police. I slept with a baseball bat under my bed and registered for a concealed weapons permit. It went on for about a year. I took advice from everyone with knowledge on how to handle the situation and what to do. I’m sure that advice I followed kept me safe. Eventually it just stopped. Poof! Done! For a long time I didn’t know who it was who had stalked and harassed me. Then they slipped up. I suppose because  they had likely began bothering someone else who didn’t take the steps I did, who didn’t have the help I did in how to handle the situation. I now know who my stalker was. Someone I knew in my real life, a man I had gone home with once years back and who had recently entered my social circle because he was dating a girlfriend of mine. Obviously he’s a fucking damaged person.

That experience taught me a lot so when I was stalked as “Jenny” by someone who knew me as an escort I knew how to handle the situation much better then if I had never been stalked in the real world. I also had resources that most people wouldn’t have.  I believe the intent was to terrorize me and make me afraid of “would could happen” if my secret life were to be exposed to the public but I cant control other peoples actions i can only control my own and how i react to people. I took steps to protect myself and called it a day. Que sera, sera and all that jazz.

It doesnt pay, really!

Is it a commentary on the world we live in when women are so frequently stalked? Ex lovers, friends, detractors, acquaintances, fans, it seems like anyone can cross the line these days. You read about it in the papers all the time. Does the technology we have now make it easier for unstable people to cross the line thinking they cant be traced, thinking what they are doing is anonymous? Maybe but the truth is  if you chose the Internet as your venue to further someones stalking or harassment you actually have made yourself more traceable, more locatable, more vulnerable to being caught  and in more extreme cases more prosecutable. There are electronic footprints available to law enforcement, sure you need to go though proper channels but now that so many women (and men too) from so many  different walks of life are being stalked, when you contact the proper authorities they are more likely to listen to your story … even if you are a whore. This I know from experience. They listened to me. They will listen to you too. If they don’t listen, find someone else who will. Keep looking and keep trying to get help.

You have to do your due diligence, you have to be proactive, you have to protect yourself, you have to take steps to end your stalking. You will not only feel stronger but your life can and for many people it often does depend on it.

Resources:

CyberAngels
www.cyberangels.org

National Organization for Victim Assistance
www.try-nova.org

Stalking Resources Center
www.ncvc.org/src/

Working to Halt Online Abuse
www.haltabuse.org